Eight Fears

1.  The process of death.   Watching both of my parents die from cancer and also a friend who suffered with it for over 10 years was difficult.   But it doesn't necessarily have to be cancer-related.  Another friend died after a botched surgery.  She went in for an exploratory procedure and the resident severed her vena cava.  She almost bled to death right there.  Actually, that might have been better.  The medical team stabilized her and did some additional surgery.  She was conscious enough afterwards to be told what happened and could give basic responses but then she went into a coma and never recovered.  She died after 13 days of horror in the hospital at only 30 years old, leaving two young children, a husband, and family to deal with the shock.

Hey, we will all die.  That I know.  But other than just going peacefully in our sleep, there are alot of scary scenarios involving death and I'm not looking forward to any of them.

2.  Losing my husband, kids, or grands.  Yeah, I guess we're back to that death thing again.  Seriously, I just want for us all to grow super old with no severe health problems and then sometime after the age of 80 we each can just decide for ourselves how and when to kick it. 

3.  Did I mention drowning or suffocation?   Hmm.... I see a theme here. 

4.  Public speaking.   Occasionally, I do home jewelry parties and have to stand up in front of people and talk.  It's always hard for me.  I can chat with anyone individually, or to a small group socially, but for business it's difficult. 

5.  Politics in our country.   Maybe it's more disgust than fear?  The current two-party system we have doesn't seem to be working very well.  I guess the fear comes in when I think about what things might be like when my grandchildren are older.  

It's not likely that I will ever vote Republican, but the Democrats have their own problems too and voters need more choices! 

6.  That one or two things from my past will come back to haunt me.  Okay, I didn't murder anyone or sleep with my husband's best friend or steal thousands of dollars from a children's charity, but we all have something that we'd rather forget, right? 

7.  Living in extreme poverty.   We live on just my husband's income in a small home and do not overextend ourselves with too many big purchases on credit.  We have some debt, but it is manageable.  For now, we're okay.  But seeing how so many have lost their jobs and homes, the future is not all that secure. 

8.  That you'll think I'm lame for not finishing today's challenge.  Coming up with 8 was a little tough.  I think the 'fears' should be switched with 'books' because I could certainly list 8 of them in no time! 

For links to those doing the 10 day challenge.... scan down to the previous post.  It's late, I'm tired, and I still have work to do for a craft event on Friday. 

Hope you all are having a sweet week.  :)